So above is a little video experiment. If it works I'll do another. Things have changed a little in the last 2 days. Gram tried getting out of bed 3 times...and each time couldn't find the strength to stand. I tried to encourage her, and perhaps get Ash's help again to get more support (something that has become increasingly necessary from time to time), but she wouldn't have it. She yelled that she couldn't do it and then collapsed (with help, landing on the bed again). She did not want to try again. So she just stayed in bed that day, and the day after. She's sleeping even more than she was before, though she's very oriented most times when she does wake. She's still eating and drinking some, a little less than before, but is still appreciating warm cinnamon buns out of the oven and such. She still says that she's not having any significant pain. The memory foam topper we've now got on her mattress seems to help keep her comfortable.

Since our conversation about dying, she hasn't seemed to be doing any more emotional processing. She hasn't even brought up John, much less the divorce. When she's awake we talk about little things, the weather, the baby, upcoming Christmas plans. She'll frequently drift back to sleep now even during conversations. I don't know if this change in her will last, but according to the Hospice team it's likely.

But Bebe remains in a good mood, laughs at the baby taking her room apart, and comments frequently on the beautiful green woods outside her window. Our weather has been chilly lately, but most of the trees here are of a kind that don't drop their leaves in the fall. So though we did have an Autumn with turning leaves and such, it's still very green and lush right now. I'll try to send a picture of her room, those of you who know her love of the woods will appreciate how very well it fits Gram.

Feel free to call for updates, or I will try to keep this going regularly as well.
-Kate